I am dying after my brother.
I want to look into your eyes
Deep into the brown
I want to look at you and say
This is it
That is all
And then to walk away into another world
Tell me I am bad, tell me I am good
Tell me I cam mix it all
And make it understood
Please tell me I do wrong, even this is right
I just want to mix it all
And get it through the night
I want to look in to your eyes
Into the deep deep brown
I want you to say
This is it
That is all
Tell me it is time to walk away
Into another world
Cuts turn into scars, I covered them with new clothes
A Soft eye surrounded by wrinkles- must be hidden by colored powders
On my cold feet I stretched a mesh and assembled leggings
I well did fixed my steps with my blue heels shoes
Every day I pick more flowers, cutting off the stalk’s petal
I put them in the office, in the kitchen, in the bedroom
In the blood of my heart, in the depth of my guts
Parallel universes and quantificational objects-
Says the angel who has accompanied me until now
Parallel universes and quantificational objects.
Please
Hold
My drooping hand
And tell it to clench
How I used to swing like a glass of wine with no yeast
Move with no wind and think about the sadness that fills all of me
How I am stirring now the life inside of the death
And in fact nothing has changed during the last months
Someone cut the rope for me
And left me tied up
Someone cut the rope for me and left me
Left me all alone
Holding onto what was already ripped and soon there is no rope anymore
Someone cut the rope for me
And I am still tied up
How I used to stand with my face to the wind and think about meaning and beat
Feeling my desires behind a delusional screen
And in fact nothing has changed because it is the same nothing during months
Someone cut the rope for me
And I am still tied up
Someone cut the rope for me and left me
Left me all alone
Holding onto what was already ripped and soon there is no rope anymore
Who cut my rope
And who left me tied up
I am looking at my palm
It is holding the black ash
The wind is trying to rob what belongs to her
She is trying to ease her rage, in you
For all the world, from you
I am clenching my feast, stronger this time
Never letting go, never crying
Who says there is no phoenix
Coming back to where he belongs, like you?
Sell yourself
to the public
float on the river
bleeding in
coloring the world with your soul
breathing everybody
into you
letting them juggle
then puking them out
to the loneliness
going back
to your corner
finding this hole, this hole
crumbling inside
to your skin
flattening your mind
to infinity
They say your soul is million pieces
Million pieces rolling in the seven worlds
They say there is no more “you”
You as I know, you as I love.
They say there is no more you, brother!
They say you turned into a dimension I can’t contain
and I can’t understand.
Is it selfish of me to want you as you?
to want you to leave angles and endless and seven worlds
to fall and to crash into the dirt,
to dig your way out,
is it selfish?
They say I am a fool for wounding my heart,
Looking at your pictures, everywhere.
They say it is just the body we lost,
The lost is a cover, a wrap, a trash bag.
Don’t look at his pictures, they say, don’t wound your heart by nonsense
The soul is here, is there- the soul is everywhere
Mourning with every tear, glowing with every happiness.
You are ruing him, you are ruing him- they say
By tears of nonsense, by mourning without an end
And I can’t contain and I can’t understand
I want to be selfish just with you.
Forgive me, it is so selfish of me
I think I will never understand.
One of your best friends just died.
A motorcycle accident.
The youngs are died before the olds?
18 year old is still a child.
Poor us, getting use to accidents.
Poor us, loosing our friends on the streets. loosing ourselves in sorrow.
He had a beautiful, beautiful motorcycle.
Kill me if you can
saith ME
Consume in wrath, consume and you be no more
No finger lift you lifted
Not by your thousands eyes might
Forced by Divine decree
Kill me if you can
for hearkened not to My voice
You had dominion, dominated you
Captured in saith G-d fibrillation pleasure
